Born in India, soaked in the rich culture and heritage with a deep love for writing and sort of an ambivert, I have always felt a spiritual pull guiding my life. From a young age, becoming a doctor and being a healer were my top goals and dreams, and through willpower and determination, I made them happen.
Yet, despite the deep fulfillment that came from helping others, an undeniable sense of incompleteness lingered—an unsettling feeling as though a vital connection between my purpose and my path was missing. My life felt fragmented, lacking the depth my heart craved, as if I were navigating a soul-searching journey, rebuilding myself piece by piece. It felt like a complicated jigsaw puzzle that seemed impossible to solve.
Weighed down by emotional and mental hurdles, the sense of disconnect grew heavier with time. For twenty-two years, I remained distant from India—both in body and spirit—deepening the ache of separation from my roots, as if the threads tying me to my homeland had slowly unraveled, leaving behind an emptiness. There was a vacuum, a huge void.
Everything began to shift when I returned to India after more than two decades. Why that long? I have no answer. The moment my feet stepped onto the ancient soil and breathed in the familiar scent of the earth, something within me stirred. The fragrance carried the memory of rain, the weight of forgotten tiptoeing footsteps, and the promise of new beginnings. My connection to the parentage and ancestors, my sense of belonging, and the deep bond with my roots, which had been patiently waiting in quiet slumber, all seemed to reignite. It was as though the land breathed life into forgotten memories and long-buried emotions, awakening the spiritual essence I had yearned for. Back to my homeland rekindled not only my ties to India but also my long-held desire buried deep within to explore the wisdom of Vedic sciences and the healing power of human connection.
Starting from scratch, with no prior knowledge of Ayurveda, I felt lost; on the contrary, I felt an undeniable pull to immerse myself in its age-old teachings. Despite my background in Western medicine, something deeper beckoned me toward this path, as if it were my true calling. I could visualize the untapped potential in merging these two seemingly different worlds—the precision of modern science with the timeless wisdom of the ancient.
However, the journey has not been without roadblocks. As I delved deeper, I found the teachings difficult to grasp at first. I was discouraged, thinking it would be tough to balance both disciplines. There were moments of doubt when the complexity of Ayurveda felt overwhelming; after all, it's an ocean of knowledge. But despite these obstacles, I held on, driven by a desire to make it my own. What began as curiosity turned into a passion. I envisioned a path where Western medicine's analytical strength could harmonize with Vedic knowledge's holistic approach, creating a healing practice that would transcend boundaries. This union of science and spirituality, of modern techniques and ancient wisdom, could offer a more profound, transformative approach to healing—one that embraces the full spectrum of mind, body, and soul.
In Ayurveda, I discovered a healing system that echoed the rhythms of my journey—one that wove together physical health, emotional steadiness, and spiritual harmony. As I burrowed myself into its teachings, I found it gently stroking and guiding me through the emotional and mental storms that had once clouded my path.
Ayurveda is more than just bookish knowledge for me; it has become a source of balance and grounding, rekindling my sense of purpose, my peaceful sanctuary and harnessing my inner sanctum. Now, with my roots firmly restored and my crystal clear vision, I am inspired to unite the science of medicine with Ayurveda's spiritual wisdom, crafting a healing practice that nurtures both the body and the mind and soul, guiding others toward wholeness.
I know learning a new science is a slow process, but I will get there.
Ayurveda for life!
Namaste,
~monika
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Love, peace and blessings
